HikaruxKaoru Don't leave me 2

Waking up the next morning was a pain. There was a migraine that had centered itself directly in my temple, probably from all the crying I had done the night before, but thats didn't matter because Kaoru was still there with his head laying on my chest. He felt my body move and opened his eyes slowly to the morning light.
"G'morning Hikaru." He said looking up at me his face squished against my stomach.
"Good morning." I said back. He started to draw little circles on my chest and stared idly at the invisible pattern he was creating.
"So do you want to get up and get breakfast or do you want to sit here?" I asked as he continued to draw circles.
He tossed the blanket over his head at my suggestion. "I don't want to get out of bed yet it's Sunday." He whined into my chest. "But I don't want to fall back asleep either. I just wanna sit here for a while."
"That's fine." I said as he nuzzled into me. He was so warm always warmer than me. Most people looked at us and assumed because we were identical that there were no differences between us but there were. We were the same height and weight and all but he was more gentle than me, his skin softer and smoother not calloused like mine. Even his scent was different it was sweet like flowers and sugar. I wonder if people looked closer at us if they could see the differences too or if everyone would always be ignorant.
I felt Kaoru's breathe start to slow and his eyes were closed again, he was falling back asleep. I rested my hand on his cheek and realized he needed to wake up.
"Kaoru." I said trying to wake him. He didn't move so I poked his cheek. "Kaoooooruuu." I said again dragging out his name. His eyes fluttered until they opened completely.
"What time is it?" He asked groggy.
"11:45" I told him.
"I guess I should get up huh?"
"Yeah, that would be good."
"Can we have pancakes?"
"We can have whatever you want."
"Okay, but make sure theres lots of syrup."
He rolled out of bed straightening his pair of orange sleep pants with little kitties on them and threw me an identical pair in blue.
"If someone found out we sleep together and you don't wear pants to bed they'd assume things." Kaoru said not bothering to put on a shirt.
"Let them assume things it's more comfortable to sleep naked." It was a habit from a while back and you know what they say about bad habits being hard to break.
"Whatever you say." He said walking towards the door. "Come on I'm starving."
"Hold on a sec geez." I said grabbing my cellphone and shoving it into the band around my pants.
"Carry me?" Kaoru asked holding out his arms.
"What the- why?" I asked confused. "Cus' I'm so tiiiired."
"But you're heavy!" I whined.
"I'm not heavy I weigh the same as you." He retorted.
"Well then I'm heavy."
"Are you saying you're fat?"
"No. If I said I was fat and we weight the same that would be implying you were fat."
"Why would you call me fat?"
"I'm not calling you fat I'm being hypothetical!"
"I don't like hypotheticalness." Kaoru said sticking his tounge out a little.
"-sigh- Nevermind." I scooped him under his knees and carried him bridal style all the way to the kitchen and he looked damn pleased with himself. 
"Are you happy?" I asked a little sarcastic.
"Very much so." He said smiling like an idiot. 
"Sometimes I wonder about you."
"Why would you wonder when you already know everything there is to know?" Kaoru asked as if it were the dumbest statement in the world. I just shook my head and sat down beside him.
"It's been a long time since mom and dad have actually eaten with us." I speculate absent mindedly staring at the identical heart shaped plates we made in grade school that read 'Mom' and 'Dad' they kept by the kitchen window.
"Yeah, it has. At least Mom calls, Dad never worries about us." His voice was tinged with sadness I knew he wouldn't admit to if I asked. We both wished that our father would have spent more time with us as kids but no one could change that now. No one can rewrite the past no matter how much they want to, it's how the world works.
"It's ok Kaoru he worries he just doesn't show it." I tried to comfort him trying to smile as bright as I could.
Kaoru let his head drop a little so his hair covered his eyes. "He doesn't like us being in the host club. He thinks our brotherly love act is useless and morally wrong...I just don't understand why he can't accept things like that. Why he's so apposed to anything that goes against tradition." It was hard for me to see Kaoru like that the was usually so calm and carefree  it was a little unnerving. On the other hand he was the cry-baby of the two of us(I know I'm one to talk but last night doesn't count).
"Dad doesn't matter. He doesn't even come here in person."
He lifted his head gazing into my eyes a moment then smiling. "You're right. I shouldn't worry about stuff like that, now come on let's make pancakes!" That was more like it Kaoru should be happy, nothing makes me happier than seeing him smile.
We each ate our share drowning them in syrup and tossing the plates in the sink for the maids to clean when we were done.
"I gotta get our cell phone plan renewed today. If I don't do it now then the cell phone we gave Haruhi will be deactivated and that would be boring." I really didn't want him to leave honestly I was still a bit shaken, then again I hated paperwork and tedious formalities.
"Go ahead I'll stay here. Stuff like that bores me, I'll be fine." I faked a smile the best I could and waved him off like I didn't mind at all. Unfortunately he was the only person that could see and stared down skeptically.
"All right if you say so." His eyes narrowed as he walked away and I let out a puff of air I had held watching him leave.
Oh Kaoru you deserve a better brother than me.
Kaoru's POV(I've never written in his pov before so sorry if it sucks)
Hikaru is always trying to act like nothing gets to him, like he's confident and sure of himself he puts up that barrier so others can never go deep enough as to get too attached to him, but I know better. Deep down he's lonely and terrified that people will leave him, terrified that I will leave him if he isn't constantly at my side. I see that fear he tries to hide every time I go somewhere without him. It clouds his eyes and covers it with a fake cheery smile that makes me want to cry. If only he knew how much people cared about him he could live without that fear. If only I had the courage to tell him how much I love him, how my heart stops beating when his hand touches my cheek or how when I breathe heavy when he's close enough to kiss it's not just an act.
Only I'm not brave enough to do that. Each time I try to confess my throat closes in on my words and I stand trying to get my vocal cords to convey what my heart feels and what my brain tells me is wrong but so right. My entire world since we were children has been him except it's different now, I can tell that much. He's more to me than he used to be. When I look at him he's not just my brother or my best friend he's more special than that he's my Hikaru and I'll always be his Kaoru as long as he wants me to be. I'll change to be whatever he needs. I will always love him more than anything else.
Always.
"Mr. Hitachiin we have arrived." The driver stated sliding down the dividing window in the sleek black car to inform me.
"Thank you. Please wait in the car I won't be long." I slipped a rather large sum of money in his hand and he smiled back at me. Servants are so easily pleased. Now to get this time-consuming task over with.
End Kaoru's POV
"So what am I supposed to do now that Kaoru's gone for the day?" I mumbled to myself sitting under the shade of the rose bushes my mother kept in our back yard. Orange and blue intertwined throughout, they supposedly grew naturally or at least thats what my mother would like to believe. They call it the 'Twin Rose Garden' a little cliche if you ask me but I guess thats her way of showing she cares.
In al honesty I love the garden more than any other place in the mansion. It was always a place I could get away from all the fake people asking to be my friend to benefit their family business or  take advantage of our money and from my father who excepted so much of me but never supported or encouraged me in anything that I did. To this day father can not tell I and Kaoru apart even after sixteen years although that could be blamed on his almost total absence from our lives.
"Well I don't want to sit here and reminisce bitterly all day. I better go do something to take my mind off things." I made my way towards the house entering the library and getting distracted by a book that had been left out on the table.
'Through the looking glass'
Dear Hikaru,
I know how much you love to read so I bought this book especially for you. It's an original collectors edition from a library in England. I hope you enjoy it and think of me when you read it.
Love,
   Mom
"Well isn't that sappy." I picked up the book and weighed it in my hand it was leather bound and in fairly good condition considering how old it must be. I suppose it wouldn't hurt to spend the day reading it since I hadn't done that in a while.
"Hiiikaruuuu!" I heard coming faintly from the main room. "Hikaru I'm back."
I guess I was outside for longer than I thought since Kaoru was home already.
"I'm in the library Kaoru." I yelled down the hall tucking the note into the book and carrying under my arm. "Your back soon."
"Well it didn't take long once I said our last name they pretty much did everything for me." He said holding out a sleek smart phone.
"It's got unlimited talk text and internet. It even has a cute little cover with your name engraved in it." Kaoru held his up to see the matching case in blue with his name on it next to my pink one.
"Oh thanks." I grinned and hugged him causing him to stumble over his words. I loved hugging him it made him so flustered and cute.
"Oh my God." 
"What?"
"I didn't do that lab report for biology!" I frantically ran around trying to find my backpack so I could get it done before three am for once.
"Hikaru you do realize that's worth a quarter of your grade." My eyes were huge I felt like a deer in headlights.
"Ah shit shit shit shit shit shit shit! I am never going to get this done!" I whined falling on to the couch sitting indian style with my computer in my lap.
Kaoru sighed. "You better get it done now, here I'll help you."
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"That took way too long.' I complained rubbing my eyes from staring at a screen for so long.
"Well if you would have taken notes during the experiment we wouldn't have this problem." He was right, I did need to pay attention more. It was just so boring!
"Well I'm great in every other class...besides foreign language."
"I can't keep doing your work you'll never learn anything for yourself." I stared up at him with puppy eyes so he wouldn't get mad at me, he was a sucker for that kind of thing.
"Don't make that face at me." He pouted and looked over than back until his face softened. 
"Stupid cute face." He grumbled cuddling into me and looking down avoiding my gaze.
"We should probably get to bed soon." Kaoru said glancing at the clock and seeing just how long it took to get that god forsaken lab report done.
"Yeah we should." I looked down at him again and his eyes were closed.
"Kaoru come on get up." He didn't react to my words besides some unintelligible murmurs most likely protests to anything involving moving.
"I guess I have to carry you again." I said under my breath. Kaoru always seemed so vulnerable like if I left him out here alone he might get hurt, that worry for him never went away but there was also the fear of him leaving me. I'm not sure if I could survive without him we were always together.
Always.
As I walked into the room and set Kaoru on the bed his eyes opened. "H-Hikaru?" He just barely mumbled.
"Yeah Kaoru?" I asked watching how cute he was half asleep rubbing his eyes.
"How did I get here?" The look on his face was so innocent I wanted to hug him to death.
"I carried you because you fell asleep on my shoulder and I couldn't leave you down ther by yourself." His face looked tired again and I could tell the reasoning to how he'd gotten where he was now was mattering less and less to him.
"That's so nice Hikaru." He groaned a little stretching and rolled over. "I love you." Kaoru was already passed out on the pillow by the end of that sentence while my face blushed cherry red that was, thankfully, hidden by the darkness of our room.
I watched his sleeping figure breath in and out knowing he was a heavy sleeper and already soundly asleep. As slowly as I possibly could I leaned down hesitating for a moment before I pressed my lips to his applying the least amour of pressure possible. The only response I recieved was a tiny curve of a smile. I wondered momentarily if he was actually awake but despised it turned on my side and also fell asleep.
Kaoru's POV
I was dreaming, I think, at least thats what it felt like. I wasn't anywhere special just the rose garden in the backyard that was cheesily named 'The Twin Rose garden'. I wasn't alone however Hikaru was with me.
"Kaoru," he started his voice so soft and melodic I didn't want to taint the air with the sound of my own. "You look a little dazed." He moved closer to me now taking my face in his hands so I'd have to look directly into his eyes.
"Hi-Hikaru we're alone you don't need to keep up the act." My heart wouldn't stop pounding and my lungs seem to have forgotten how to function properly, he was just so close.
"Right now Kaoru it's not an act." Hikaru almost vowed solemnly looking at me with a burning intensity.
"Not an act?" I asked innocently as if I had no idea what he meant. I could feel him warm shallow breaths on my face and it sent chills up my spine, and other places I wouldn't like to mention. It almost made me feel guilty to feign innocence in this situation.
"One day you'll understand Kaoru." he looked off at the garden for a moment then turned back to me and leaned down pressing his lips to mine ever so gently as I felt a blush paint my cheek.
He pulled away and smiled warmly. "Good night Kaoru." Hikaru said fading away along with the colors around me.
"But wait! It's still day time!" I extended my hand out like I could reach him even though he was already gone.
Then everything around me just went black. I knew I was asleep at that point but I just couldn't wake up. I laid there in that state unmoving until deeper more peaceful sleep pulled me under.
End Kaoru's POV(I don't know why he's so hard for me)
The morning came again no more pleasant than the last. I couldn't sleep well again and I was up much more of the night than I would have liked but at least I didn't have any nightmares again.
"Hikaru get out of bed already! We're going to miss school if you keep this up." I rolled out from under the covers slowly, zombie-like slowly, grabbed my uniform and went to the bathroom to get changed.
"If you slept more you wouldn't hate mornings so much." Kaoru commented taking a bite of his breakfast.
"If mornings didn't come so soon then maybe I would sleep more." I tossed back. Mornings didn't put me in a good mood I hated everything about them, the only good part of them was being able to see Kaoru's face again.
"Young masters, the car is ready. Please finish your breakfast quickly or you'll be late to class." The two maids that usually take care of us said in unison
"Yeah, yeah. Two minutes and we'll be out there." I told them. They were always so jumpy in the morning, if all else failed we could break a few speed laws on the way to the academy.
"I already finished eating Hikaru, come on you can bring yours in the car."